I wear black because I am in mourning. I am in mourning for the country I thought I lived in. The country that is most certainly dead. My privilege allowed me to believe that Hillary would win by a landslide. It was beyond my comprehension to think there were enough United States citizens who aligned with Drumpf’s values of hatred to elect him president. I was so wrong.
In the past year, Drumpf has said the following:
Mexican immigrants are rapists
He will kill the families of “terrorists”
He wants Hillary assassinated
Muslims should be banned from the USA
Women should not have reproductive rights
Marriage is for straight people only
It’s OK to perpetrate non-consensual sexual acts (i.e.: Nothin’ wrong with rape)
He is narcissistic. He is a pathological liar.
He is selfish, self-centered, inarticulate, incites hate, preaches hate.
He does not understand how to run an ethical business, let alone a country.
The subtext for the slogan, “Make America Great Again,” is “Make America Hate Again.” Or, as the electoral college just informed us, “Bring Forth America’s White Supremacist Values Again.”
Drumpf is not my president. Drumpf will never be my president. I do not acknowledge his position because I do not believe in hate.
I do not acknowledge his position but I do acknowledge my racial privilege. I acknowledge the ideological, institutional, and systemic racism upon which this country was built. I acknowledge the implicit and explicit sexist values upheld by Drumpf and his supporters. I acknowledge the extreme violence perpetrated against trans people. I acknowledge the high rates of alcoholism and suicide of Native Americans.
I have been saying for years that this country is ill. I see the symptoms of its illness manifest as depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, and PTSD in the children and teenagers to whom I offer therapeutic support. The election of Drumpf to the presidency of this country is proof of this illness.
I hear some of my fellow writers and activists calling for strength and action. I wish I could say that I am in a place to offer such things, but I am not. I am afraid for my life and my liberty.
We just elected a man to the highest office in the world who admitted to molesting women and denied any wrongdoing in doing so.
I support everyone who holds enough privilege to face this embodiment of hatred head on. As of now, that’s not me.
To all the people who voted for Drumpf: You can have this country. I will take my brilliance elsewhere.